Sunday, December 15, 2013

The Great Silence

I had some preparation for this, obviously. I knew the day would come. What I was not prepared for was the silence. In an interview I gave a few years ago on WICN with Mark Lynch, I talked about how I had no choice but to write. I never have. I don't consider it a duty or a chore; it's what I do as much as breathing, sleeping, or walking. Some of my writer friends call it a lonely life, others find it, well, everyone has a description. But, this, the silence of Los Angeles ... this I was not prepared for. I have always sought solace - in the desert, on beaches, hiking in the mountains, on remote hillsides in Wales. But I never considered the deafening silence Chester would leave behind. Awakened by the clock ticking in the middle of the night I wondered again just how long this silence will last.

8 comments:

normadesmond said...

i'd missed the last post.

i'm so very sorry for your loss. i know your pain, i've felt it too many times. words always escape me at times like this, you see, i'm not a writer....
but you knew that.

Donna Lethal said...

Of course you are! And look what Thom/Fabulon did. We are so lucky to all have each other. This is why I have been absent from the salon. Much love.

Lindax0x0x0x0x said...

At some point he will come back to visit you. Mine did. For many years after his passing, I could hear the sound of Fred lay down next to me. I would look, but no Fred there. Then I realised he was there, visiting me, helping me get through the silence. But there is still a big Fred sized hole in my life & always will be.

puncturedbicycle said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. My beloved dog died almost three years ago and I still mourn her loss every day, and miss the sound of her breathing every night. It breaks your heart, and then eventually it gets a little better.

Dave said...

I know that such a big loss never "goes away". I've learned to live with mine, most of the time, and I hope that happens for you eventually. Death ends a life -- not a relationship. Don't spend too much time unnecessarily in the quiet places for awhile. See you soon.

Donna Lethal said...

Thank you kindly, everyone. Yes, see you soon. Happy to be coming home.

Elizabeth Chapman said...

I have had dogs since before I could walk. Pjotos of me crawling in our ridgebacks whelping box. Many dogs have passed through my life all with their own special memories. Like my wuzzy who when I was little and cru ing in the wo ods would be rhere with me licking my teaRs. I guess what I am teying to say is to me dogs have been around me as much or even at times more than people. U r not grieving a dog u r grieving a friend so it will take time. Go qith where evee the process takes u. That is the way through. U will always miss him just loke a friend . And u will heal and then u will not miss the pain. But until then do what u r to get there.

Donna Lethal said...

I love you, we have so much history, it means so much that you are in my life and always will be. Dear Liz. xo